Life's Lyrics 15 - These Days

It is the night before I walk into a lawyer's office and face divorce mediation. I am unusually light about it and probably shouldn't be. I guess I'm resolved to what ever happens, happens. Not much more I can do at this point. All the forms are filled out. I've talked with my soon to be Ex-wife at length so that there should be no surprises tomorrow.

So, after tucking the kids into bed, I've spent the better part of the night cleaning a kitchen, a room I'm not sure will host many more meals for me. I'm a bit melancholy. And when that happens I turn to music.

While finishing up the last kitchen items, I quietly started a playlist on my iPod that holds nearly ten hours of relatively mellow acoustic music. i put it on random as I didn't want to dictate a mood. The first song to spill forth was an acoustic version of a Jackson Browne song, These Days.

Oh my. Did this hit home tonight. I listened for nearly half of an hour on repeat. I never got to another song. In order to purge the song and get a decent sleep tonight, I decided to post it. So, here ....

Well I've been out walking
I don't do that much talking these days
These days--
These days I seem to think a lot
About the things that I forgot to do
And all the times I had the chance to

And I had a lover
Its so hard to risk another these days
These days--
Now if I seem to be afraid
To live the life I have made in song
Well its just that I've been losing so long

I'll keep on moving
Things are bound to be improving these days
These days--
These days I sit on corner stones
And count the time in quarter tones to ten, my friend
Dont confront me with my failures
I had not forgotten them

Now I need to find a way to fall asleep....